It hit me yesterday afternoon that I'm leaving to go to Disney for about 5 months, about 10 hours away from my parents, in 2 weeks. I've never been outside of my little nest of comfort, and it is starting to scare me a little. I know that in my head, I'm ready to go and take on this new adventure, but my worries of not having my family nearby have started to cloud my mind.
I texted my mom yesterday comparing my feelings to the first day of kindergarten. I don't remember mine in perfect detail, but I do remember feeling scared to let go of my mom's hand as she walked me to my class. My head told me to let go because I didn't want my classmates to think I was weird or a baby, but I also knew in the rational part of my brain that I could let go and walk in on my own.
I let go, of course. After the first 10 minutes or so of my five year-old self having an existential crisis over being left alone in an unfamiliar place, I talked to one of my friends from pre-school, and I knew that everything would be fine.
Thinking about this snippet from my past made me realize how taking this step of independence makes me want to strengthen my relationship with God. No matter where I am, God goes with me, and I never have to worry about having a friend in Him.
"Cast all your anxiety on Him because He cares for you." -1 Peter 5:7
I won't have my friends back home or my family to keep me company on this internship, but I know that God will be with me every step of the way. I'd like to think He's the best security blanket I could ever ask for.
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