Wow, it's been a hot minute since I've been back here. Let me start by saying it's been a crazy few months. Acclimating to a new place is always an adjustment, but I've found I haven't done all that much acclimating. I've honestly just been kind of lost since I transferred schools.
Getting involved coming in as a spring transfer is never easy, but the things I've hoped to get involved in aren't those that God has in His plan for me. I can't say I'm not devastated about that, and it's been an emotional day to say the least.
I feel like God is pulling me in a different direction than I intended, and I'm not sure how to feel about it. I love Louisiana, and I ached to come home towards the end of my College Program, but I think God is telling me that I left my heart and home back in Orlando.
Honestly, I didn't mean to fall in love with Orlando. I didn't intend to love that place as much as I did and still do, and I felt at home there for the first time in almost 3 years since leaving my original home back in Slidell, LA. But the problem is that I'm struggling with the decision whether or not to take the time off of school once again and risk an even later graduation date, assuming I get the internship I'm applying for.
I took a huge risk with applying to the College Program the first time, and I was convinced I wasn't going to get it. But then I did, and it changed the entire shape of my collegiate and professional life. An opportunity for a professional internship like this would push my career to impossible heights, and it's a smart career move for the long haul. But is it the right time right now?
"The Lord is good to those whose hope is in him, to the one who seeks him; it is good to wait quietly for the salvation of the Lord." -Lamentations 3:25-26
I pray for peace and patience in obeying the call of my Lord and Savior, and I know that He will reveal His desires for me in His perfect timing. Be still, my impatient heart, and wait for the Lord to show you His wishes. He will lead you in the direction of grace and will guide you on the path to become your fullest and truest self.
For now, I will wait and pray and hope, and let's just see what happens. Who knows, the Castle may be filling my Instagram feed sooner than you think?
