{November 10, 2017}

I know you're probably wondering where I've been and if I'm alright. I will say that a lot has happened, both good and bad, in the last month that has preoccupied me to say the least. I've made some friends, lost a few, and have been doing my best to be successful in my job. I will say that I miss my family, I miss college, and I miss home.
I crave that feeling of home again, though in January, I am making a new one in Baton Rouge. I know that I haven't felt that sense of home in quite some time, and I want that so badly. Disney has been a great temporary home, but because I knew that it was only temporary, I never really embraced it as my home. Now, I have less than 8 weeks left until I go back to Louisiana, and here I am regretting not immersing myself in that temporary home.

My home became a bit emptier last week, as one of my roommates decided to leave the program and go back home. She unfortunately didn't think Disney felt like home, so she returned to her true home. I don't blame her at all, though it does make me sad to see her go since she was one of my best friends here. With her gone, the sense of home she created in my heart has disappeared, and I have been searching for a way to fill that void.

I thought about it more after crying for a few hours after she left. Living with her was temporary, but I knew that we would see each other after the program to catch up on life, and that feeling of home was not evicted but just taking a short sublease.

Here's the thing though: no matter who enters or exits the home of my heart, God is always a permanent resident, and He will be there to guide me and to vent about work to and to binge-watch TV shows and to take impromptu trips with.

"God is our refuge and strength, a very present help in trouble." -Psalm 46:1

Right now, I'm going to enjoy having a bedroom to myself, and while I may be looking at bare walls and an empty bed across from me, the Spirit of God dwells within this place, and His light fills the room, even as I lie in the darkness. I am alone, though I am never lonely in the company of the Lord, and I plan to fully immerse myself into His companionship and love.